LIFE IS BUT A DREAM....
or seems like one right now. Maybe its the slight lack of sleep that ive been experiencing. Or its the fact that classes are gettin into full swing, where labs actually meet and theres actual discussing in discussion section. Possibly its the lack of exercise during the summer, which i have to make up for and then some. Or take three in combination and there u have it. This week was a little bit more than what ive been used to, but im still here. As long as ur still up, u r able to do something about ur situation.
Having three labs in three consecutive days was a little bit more than i expected. Sure, i expected it to be a bit bothersome, but sometimes u have to experience situations for urself. 1st up was the chem 3a lab. 5 hrs of acid/base and solubility goodness, how can i contain the anticipation???.... yea, so most of the lab/disc time was spent with my lab ta explaining every detail of the lab and its workings. A thorough ta is better than a lazy one any day, but w/ a 5 hr lab, i wanted to get outta there pretty quick. The actual lab wasnt too shabby. Didnt take a whole lotta time either, jus a good 1-2 hrs. The chemicals that were involved stunk like hell tho, kinda made my head spin for awhile. Ughhh. Next on the choppin block was the bio 1b lab. I liked the time block a whole lot better, only 3 hrs this time. Pretty much involved me graphin out some things and hunting multicolored beads camoflauged in the grass (also known as population density and predator/prey studies). Yummy. Which brings us to today, physics 8b. Again, not bad at all, it turned out to be the best outta all three of them. No clue what was goin on in the initial stages, but i got rollin pretty quick. Lady luck was smiling at me tho, cause i paired up w/ some1 who had to make up the lab, thus knew everything about it. Now... i kno a little bit more about the electric potentials and such.
This barrage of lab time might have been worse if not for a cerrtain friend of mine. So Shuan came up to the bay area, always good stuff. Last year when he came up, i didnt get a chance to meet up w/ him, so i guess this time makes up for it. He came officially to c his sister up in San Jose... but it was really to c us... hehe. Once he arrived to our pad, the hilarity ensued. Only a few ppl can make me laugh so hearty, and he is one of them. Havent laughed that hard in a long while, its a real good feeling. Pretty much what it involved were RJ-45 cables goin up against the AR-45 (later the M16 rifle), and gigantic pigeons duking it out w/ a random elderly man who happened to feed the pigeons a bit too much, thus causing them to become highly aggressive. So, it was pretty much the same stuff, hehe. Yea, so that was a nice change of pace, really glad that he came up b4 his classes started. A good friend is always welcome in our pad, oh yea baby.
Along w/ all this hilarity/massive lab sessions was the wushu. Wushu is part of me, within me and running in my veins, floating around in my mind. Tonite happened to be the in-class demo night for the wushu club, and i realized something that ive known in the back of my mind for a long time now. After doin my nanquan form, it became more and more apparent that my basics needed a real overhaul, and on a more fundamental lvl, i jus needed to practice hardcore from now on. Plus, it has to be a different form of practice, something where i have to hold horse stance for 2 min, 3 times over, practice nanquan stances till my quads melt off from my bones, and go through the compulsory form full-throttle for a good while. Only by doin this can i further my nanquan. But, words are a far cry from application, requiring the same effort to get myself pumped up to do that sort of thing. With collegiates not too far in the future, i better go hardcore pretty soon. But, all in all, i wouldnt have it any other way.
Taken all in combination, im beginning to feel its effects. Physically, mentally, spiritually, all my energies are beginning to drain. My fatigue, in many aspects, culminated today. Feelings of sickness, feelings of distance w/ reality and consciousness, a state of limbo, all those ive experienced and continue to experience today. I still question the means on which i can continue on. Everything feels a bit draining now. Why do i continue? I really dont know. I dont kno much of anything when considering everything in total. I picked up some things here and there in my time so far, but there is a whole vastness which i have barely scratched the surface. A thirst for the unknown? The promise of the future? Or a desire to achieve that which i havent yet? Something gives me this drive, this hope, this boundless energy in which i can draw from. Unexplainable indeed, but im thankful that i still feel this way. *drawing up the chi* Tommorow is another day, hopefully to recharge for the next barrage. Take care yall, and gnite. More to come soon.
